I have been in an unapologetic state lately. I journaled for the first time in over two months last night, and I was struggling to come up with words to put on paper. I’ve been preferring to manage internal vs. external processing instead of running to the pen. It’s made me more boisterous where I used to be like “I can’t wait to write about this later.” I’ve been more eager to deal with issues head-on instead of overanalyzing. Lately, I’ve frequently been thinking, “Look where your mind is. This doesn’t matter. Back to what’s important.” I have the fall plug-ins activated with a freshly cleaned apartment as of yesterday. We really need to focus on prioritites here.
I usually go into a new age with all of these plans and a long list of to-dos, but this is the year of execution. No amount of planning can outwork God, so I am just excited to find my blessings as they continue to come. I care but then again not nearly as much as I used to. I can’t stop saying, “I am going to be 30 in two years.” I am heading into a territory that is the equivalent of a kid in the candy store. I touched on this in my last post, but literally anything is possible. For 27, I broke cycles, overcame challenges even when I was scared witless, became even more comfortable in my skin and my way of doing things, proved myself wrong and right and then wrong again, strengthened my faith, got better with forgiveness (Lord knows I can hold a grudge) and tended to my own garden.
I have some PTO coming up as some time to recharge and plan on using the rest of it as the year comes to a close. I don’t identify as a go with the flow girlie, but I am more go with the flow now than ever before. Everything that I am praying for is out of my control, so the focus is to maintain that mustard seed size of faith and stay present. That’s all for now folks…until next time!
Reflection Points:
- How are you feeling? What purpose does journaling serve for you?
- What are you getting me for my birthday?
- Unrelated but have you guys ever watched a music video with no audio? If you’re in a silly mood then I highly recommend one from the early 2000s.